There are certain things in life which go hand in hand. For instance, expectations and disappointments... They say,'Even God has expectations'. I ask,'Does this mean He is in for some disappointments, too?'
Alright, I was pissed off and dissatisfied. With them may be or With me? who knows and how will anyone know also when I wont open my mouth and tell what is hurting me. .Is there any use of talking vaguely when you want someone to understand something....Expecting them to read between lines... I guess not, so when I cant say what I want to communicate to them then whats the point of cribbing. I think I care a lot but I am afraid to show coz of the disappointment I got in return of the my feelings. My affection crushed under the weight of expectations and counter expectations.
Is it wrong to expect?
Is it wrong to put your faith in people and want their love?
I have done everything in my power to help them, cheer them up. And then seen them appreciating someone else and moving away from me. Ouchhhh, that hurts, as if whatever I did was trivial. Well... this makes me feel human, I am not so cool u see, I am a normal person with ordinary dreams, mundane sometimes really, normal expectations and when they dont get fulfilled I get bitter like any other human being.... Sometimes I feel why I cant be content with what I have and stop running after what I don't...
But then its not a sin to be human, God made me so, if He expected something greater from me then he should have made me an angel... I guess I should stop writing this post now, coz I am afraid that God had expectations too and I think he wont like what I have in store for him...
